I Apologize

You know every now and then, a friend whispers something in your ear concerning something that you really had some reservations about, but you did it anyway, and what that friend told you was something that you really needed to hear? Well, I do thank God for friends. Because just the other day, one of my beautiful sisters in spirit sent me an e-mail regarding my blogspot and said something that I really needed to hear. She asked me the question, exactly what demographic was I trying to cater to? Now she did not just ask me this for no apparent reason, I actually asked for her opinion about how things looked and the general feel of the site. She responded with this question because several weeks ago, I had a questionable posting regarding a certain NFL player that was of an adult nature. At the time, my thoughts were of how many women would read this and become faithful readers because they would grow to expect this on my blog from time to time. In my mind "gotcha" was in capital letters and dancing with disaster. However, I did not know this. If my intentions were pure at the time, I would have realized that this posting was not only tasteless and immature, it was certainly not in sync with the original vision I had for the site. In her e-mail, my friend had mentioned to me, how uplifted and spiritual she felt after reading the poems of the day and the discussion postings and that most of the individuals she has spoken with, had felt the same way. Now back to her question, "Exactly what demographic are you trying to cater to?" In a subtle way, it began to sink in, that I had actually sold out. I had allowed greed (yes greed) to consume me and drag me to what I thought was the fast track to popularity. Nothing could have been further from the truth. I was always taught, that it takes a big man to admit when he's wrong and an even bigger man to correct his wrongdoing. This is where I have to say that I am so sincerely sorry. I was so engulfed in the positive feedback and the e-mails that I wanted more. I wanted more people to read, comment, send e-mails, share, etc. So much so, that I lowered myself to a level that is beyond me and beyond what this blogspot represents. I wanted the teenagers, the housewives, the people that sit around all day, the players, the upper class, the closeted, everybody! And truth be told, I can still welcome those individuals, but under the condition that when you come, expect to be lifted, fulfilled, moved and removed (smile) because there is enough trash in this world sitting at our feet, so we don't need it in our spirits. I've always said that we are ALL ministers, vehicles for spirit, vessels, tools to be used by the Creator and this is my own little way of letting my light shine. So I hope that you will forgive me and expect greater things of each other, because there are so many works yet undone, for you, for me and this blogspot.

Take care and much love,

WYLD STYLZ

p.s. a special thanks to you Marcia.